Trigger Warning: This article contains discussions of sexual abuse.
Warning! Spoilers for FX’s Dying for Sex ahead!
Molly knew she was going to die in FX’sDying for Sex—the bigger deal was whether she would ever have an orgasm with another person before that happened. The miniseries, based on the podcast of the same name by Nikki Boyer, follows Molly after she receives the news that her breast cancer has returned at Stage IV. The doctor gave her a 30 percent chance of making it five more years, and this revelation forced Molly to confront every disappointment in her life. At the start ofDying for Sex, Molly was in a sexless marriage and had only ever given herself an orgasm. Before she died, she wanted to change that.
Molly’s husband, Steve, was pretty terrible in theFX seriesDying for Sex. He secretly loved his wife being sick since it made him the martyr caregiver. Molly quickly left him and instead turned to her actor best friend, Nikki, to provide her care. With Nikki focusing on radiation and chemo appointments,Molly focused her remaining energy on exploring any kink she could think ofwith as many partners as she could find. However, it wasn’t until Molly and her neighbor (called only"Neighbor Guy" inDying for Sex) began a BDSM adventure together that she came close to crossing off the first item on her bucket list.
Neighbor Guy Helped Molly Achieve Her Goal Before Dying In Dying For Sex
Molly Crossed Off The First Item Of Her Bucket List
Molly met a lot of men between herStage IV diagnosis and her death inDying for Sex. The FX series didn’t shy away from the nitty-gritty as Molly discovered that she loved to dominate men in a wide variety of ways. However, the only person she developed an emotional relationship with was Neighbor Guy. He fell easily into the submissive role, and though Molly feared that his gaze would shift to pity once he found out about her prognosis, Neighbor Guy proved himself different from Steve in every way.Molly realized that this was who she wanted to orgasm with, but her health had declined rapidly.
Molly’s lung collapsed the precise moment that she told Neighbor Guy that she loved him inDying for Sex. This led to a long stint in the hospital, and it was evident to all involved that Molly might never go home again. So, Neighbor Guy came to spend the night in Molly’s hospital room. Though the pair’s BDSM routine proved challenging to pull off while Nurse Ernie came and went (entirely determined to continue doing his job),Neighbor Guy was finally able to bring Molly to climax. Her first goal after learning her cancer had returned inDying for Sexhad finally been achieved. However, this took over a year of personal work for Molly.
Molly’s Childhood Trauma Explained (& How It Affected Her End-Of-Life Goals)
Molly had no problem climaxing on her own—this was made perfectly clear inDying for Sexas she built up her rather impressive vibrator collection. However, whenever Molly was with another person, she struggled to remain present.The closer she got to reaching an orgasm, the more her mind would fixate on her past trauma. It’s ultimately revealed inDying for Sexthat Molly was molested by her mother’s boyfriend when she was seven. The abuser had forced Molly to say that she loved him, and this tainted the idea of romantic intimacy for the rest of Molly’s life.
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Molly would frequently see her abuser sitting nearby while she was intimate with others inDying for Sex, and this would quickly pull her out of her pleasure. Over time, she finally allowed herself to tell Nikki all that had happened. This didn’t immediately heal Molly, but it opened the door for her to slowly process the trauma. An impactful scene inDying for Sexsaw Molly perform a sort of interpretive dance, which her palliative care person, Sonya, had recommended she try. Through this,Molly further let go of the fear, pain, and dissociation that kept her from fully releasing with another person.
Molly was ultimately able to relinquish the pain, forgive herself and her mother, and build a more positive association with romantic intimacy.
Molly was never healed of her past trauma inDying for Sex. Her abuser’s blurred figure in the background of her hospital room while she and Neighbor Guy were intimate proved this. However, Molly was ultimately able to relinquish the pain, forgive herself and her mother, and build a more positive association with romantic intimacy. It was because of this that she finally achieved her goal ofDying for Sex’s ending.
Why Molly Was Put On Hospice In Dying For Sex’s Final Episode
Molly’s Prognosis Changed
After Molly and Neighbor Guy had their night together at the hospital, they went their separate ways. They loved one another, but Molly knew her end was coming and chose the thrilling night of intimacy as their final moments together. It was immediately after this thatMolly was taken for a spinal tap to determine whether her cancer had spread to her spinal column and brain. If it had, then the efforts to extend Molly’s life would come to an end. She would be left with mere months or weeks to live.
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Of course, it was ultimately confirmed inDying for Sex’s ending that Molly’s cancer had spread. Her time with Dr. Pankowitz came to a close, and Molly was instead placed in the care of hospice. Her sexual exploits were over, and it was time for Molly to settle in for the final stages of death.
Molly’s Visions & Final Stages Of Death Explained
Dying For Sex Focused In On The Natural Process Of Dying
While in hospice care, Molly was cared for by the spectacularly enthusiastic Nurse Amy. Though Nikki and Molly’s mother, Gail, squirmed through the nurse’s explanation of the stages of death, Molly benefitted greatly from Amy’s poetic perspective. Nurse Amy explained that the body knows how to die, just like it knows how to give birth or have an orgasm. The latter example was exactly Molly’s language, andshe willingly let go and allowed her body to go through its natural process of dying. She became tired, she had a final rally of energy, and her perception of time and space was altered.
Nurse Amy explained that the body knows how to die, just like it knows how to give birth or have an orgasm.
Just as Nurse Amy warned, Molly began to experience time differently. She felt as if everything in time was happening simultaneously, allowing her to see Nikki as she was in that moment and as she had been in every stage of their 20-year friendship. At one point,Molly experienced some vivid hallucinations. The decorations on the walls began to fly around the room, and one of Molly’s previous exploits (the man with the perfect penis) appeared naked before her before his member disconnected and happily flew around the room as well. None of this was scary to Molly, however. She was fascinated and at peace.
What Happened To Nikki After Molly’s Death In Dying For Sex
Nikki Sacrificed Everything With No Regrets
Nikki held Molly’s hand as she died inDying for Sexand loyally made an effort to shut her friend’s mouth as she had requested (not as easy as Nikki had expected).From here, the FX series jumped forward a bit in time. It’s unclear how many months or years had gone by, but it’s clear that Nikki was able to get her career back on track. At the end ofDying for Sex, Nikki appears to be producing a production ofA Midsummer Night’s Dream. Additionally, Nikki and Noah got back together, and their relationship is going strong during the show’s final scenes. Everything worked out in the end.
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Nikki’s Final Scene & The True Meaning Of Dying For Sex’s Ending Explained
Nikki Is Left With The Bittersweet Reality
Molly’s death had naturally been immensely difficult for Nikki. Her own life had fallen apart, but she was paid back with a happy ending inDying for Sex. However, Nikki’s final scene hilariously demonstrates just how much Molly is still on her mind.She notices a pair of old women sitting and laughing together as they chat, and their miming quickly makes it clear that they are discussing a particular sexual act. The friends remind Nikki of herself and Molly, but it’s bittersweet. This version of their friendship will never be a reality since they were robbed of the opportunity to grow old together.
This final scene ofDying for Sexemphasizes the complex array of emotions that follow tragedy. Nikki has no regrets about her friendship with Molly and is satisfied by the care she provided her in the end. However, this isn’t to say Niki doesn’t mourn what their friendship would have been if Molly hadn’t gotten sick.Dying for Sexunabashedly hones in on the good, bad, and ugly realities of lifeand emphasizes that both pain, joy, and everything in between must be embraced. Nikki’s teary eyes and soft smile while watching these rowdy old friends in the show’s ending are the perfect representation of this.
